You know that you aren't like that, but you do it. You know what you need to do, but you don't do it. There are many things in life in which we know, feel or recognise, but somehow, we aren't able to control the circumstances resulting in the opposite reaction being shown.
Hi my name is the David the procrastinator. Welcome to my blog.
Its been quite awhile since I have blogged. This post is kinda random. Nothing in particular, nothing specific, just something I need to get off my chest.
First of all, I dread work. Not that I am not thankful, but I dread my work. Tonight I learnt through Bible studies that we all have a part to play at work, we are put there for a reason, not that I didn't know that in the first place, but its hard applying that logic at work.
I have always been asking myself what am I doing in the IT line. From one job to another, its been 5 years. But God has a purpose for me to be here. What I am there for, I can't really answer that...now.
Ecclesiastes 2:24 (New International Version)
"A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God"
We are asked to find satisfaction in our work. In order to find satisfaction, the only way is to hand our jobs upon to God. He won't give us something what we can't bear. Right now, I can only trust in God, that the next few goals that I am planning, would be in accordance to His word as well.
This 6 months, I have accomplished most of the things I wanted to do, inclusive of singing, driver license, and I have left my class 2 to take before I would have done almost the things I have intended for this half year.
I want to aim higher, I want to stretch myself, to see where I can go.
The next 6 months, would be the turning point in my life. Hope I would have a terrific birthday in the next coming turn. Amen.
God has been good so far really, I came back from my church camp recharged. I don't dread going to work so much. Although there are times, I wish I was doing something else.
I realised where my part or role in the church is. And I would need to strive even harder to work towards my goals. Singing, and possibly take up learning guitar if possible. But I think that would be quite highly impossible as I don't have so much time ahead. Would it still be worship leading? I leave it up to God to bring me to that level. I would work hard on trying to be a better singer. For now, I am just contented to have the chance to sing.
The recent H1N1 has been causing quite a commotion around the world. With traveling being posed as a possible threat to catching the virus, Singapore itself has become quite a dangerous place to visit as we face increasing numbers of people being infected.
Its really uncontrollable at the current moment. But the stupid thing is they are implementing a self quarantine on companies, which could potentially eat into our own leave. Why doesn't it effectively utilize our MC instead ?? If someone is really infected, its like we asked for it. Which is stupid.
I seriously doubt that would deter people from traveling though. But the chances of getting infected? I would feel is perhaps the possibility of getting into a car accident. If you are just not careful, you just might meet up with one.
Have you ever felt angry when you know you shouldn't? You try with all you might, but in the end, the anger just seems bursting out of control cause you simple can't contain it. This week I happen to be angry with someone, I am not sure if its cause I feel that I have been wasting time, trust and communication issues, I just happen to be upset. I feel bad yet the same point of time I am angry.
I wish I could be more empathetic and sensitive, unfortunately, I just can't control what I was feeling.
Perhaps its the effort I put in for rushing back. I spent certain time and effort for trying to communicate, yet it always ends up with doing that for nothing.
At the same point of time, that certain someone happen to have tooth trouble, and I really feel bad for not showing enough concern, and not being understanding enough. Maybe its partly I didn't even know in the first place and it makes me kinda upset that something quite major had happened, and I seemed oblivious about the whole thing.
I am sorry for that. I really didn't mean to be so insensitive towards the whole situation. Especially when its just alot of bad timing happening most of the time.
Good luck for your quiz yah. Hope you do well. Take care.
Gotta go, I need to wake up in awhile, and singing 7 songs in church !!
i live because HE lives
11:39 PM
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
I had a NIGHTMARE !! It was so real that I can still vividly remember what I said, what happened and almost every single freaking detail. No kidding !!
Its so terrible that I don't think I want to blog about it here. Its just seriously depressing. This is one of the Deja Vu I hope never to happen. If it does, I think I would be devastated.
Had quite a slow but smooth week. Last week of driving already before my test next Friday. Somehow, I don't think I am ready you know. I just went into the circuit yesterday and fumbled up. What would you expect accessing the circuit for the first time inside? I know the techniques. But I don't know the route at all. I just need to suck it up. Cause I know if I don't, I will definitely need to take it again.
Went to KTV yesterday with some friends. I haven't improved at all since I took my classes. Okay just a little tiny bit. Still LOTS of improvement to go.
It was fun though hanging out with my funny friend and her old classmate. AND she always calls me UNCLE !! Arugh....
Still learning the song Falling Slowly, I recorded the first version and I mumble when I sing!! Drats, I am still hanging on to that bad habit of mineeeee.
Packing my room is such a chore, and I haven't scoped out my bed yet, bills are unpaid and I haven't sent my email for some stuff I am doing. I am such a procrastinator !!
There was a report on the news recently about older women going for younger men. Its such an interesting subject to talk about that I was chatting with my friend all morning at work about the news. Whoops haha, multi-tasking okay.
Perhaps men finding younger companions would be a norm. But women finding younger companions, would that really such a taboo in our modern society?
I guess when women young and eligible, they certainly wouldn't think of getting someone younger due to security, financially, and probably guys who are younger can be quite immature too.
But when you are self sufficient, been there, done that, and you realise you are still alone, would that prompt you to look in the different page of the bachelor directory and realise that all you need is perhaps someone to rely on ??
The most common thing I hear from all my friends are women in SG are so demanding. Especially the generation of today. Whether it comes to spending, their mile high walls surrounding them, expectations, wants, and we are not even talking about what they would prefer in the characteristics of their partner.
Its perhaps a stereotyping of ALL the women but perhaps there must be some dumbfound truth in that, else where does that rumour pop up from?
Perhaps that has lead to women who are picky and unmarried at a later age.
Sometimes my guys friends ask me go clubbing for the purpose of picking up gals. I ask them why can't they pick up gals themselves? They said that if I am there they have a higher chance ??!!
But the main reason I think is perhaps, I told them that its not hard to get to know someone. Despite some gals do have a attitude and grow eyes on their head, what could be the worst that could happen? Rejection ?? If you don't get to know this person, there is always somewhere along the way. Its not the end. Move on !!
And DESPITE the stereotyping of SGgals being not so friendly, you can't take the perception and like a bowling ball knock down all the pins just because one person is like that.
Some gals just need chatting up thats all. And if there is no chemistry, Next !!
IF 2 ppl really care and love each other, what would the opinion of anyone else really matter?? Of course there are some truth and concerns when it comes to the obstacles that might and possibly happen. But when 2 parties have decided to start the r/s. I suppose they would have already discussed the consequences lying ahead.
The greatest barrier they would face is themselves. Minding about the stares that other ppl give, gossips that would be spread behind their back. If they can survive the "twitter" of what people say. Perhaps chances of trying the r/s would be a tad much easier.
SO what is ur ideal partner or relationship? I believe those that have found their other half, would be able to answer that. But till than. If you are still single, it just means you have yet to meet the right one. Happy finding =)
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